Stone Age,
I feel for you,


giving up something you live for is fing hard to do, I know I have had to do it.
But first get 2nd,3rd,4th,.............medical opinions until you find the one your happy with or happy with the person giving the opinion.
But if you must give it away, here's what I did.
In the beginning of the end, I would load up the van head down to the beach,rig up and drag the gear to the waters edge, sit on the beach for awhile to recover, get out for 100m or so, totally exhausted lungs screaming for air, fall of, sit on board and recover, try to water start couldn't get up, to hard, drift back to the beach, pack up, go home crying and swearing my head off.
After doing this a number of times, I decided to sell all my gear as quick as possible
(someone got a good deal) I also didn't go anywhere near the beach when the wind was really kicking in. I would still get that feeling when the wind was blowing but I didn't have any gear. After a couple of years I lost that feeling and even started to get pissed off with the strong winds blowing across my back deck. I basicly didn't think about anything to do with the wind or ocean. Initially it was like a big mind game between my head wanting to do it and my body saying foff. Eventually the body persuaded the head to change its way of thinking.
My story is a little different to yours as I have been fortunate enough to be able to start sailing again, but I have always fouund that hearing about other people and how they handle things helps to clear the head( if you disagree, I'm happy for you to tell me to foff) Stay positive

and keep smiling

ps
I have cystic fibrosis(a genetically inherited lung disease) and until july2004 my last sail was in 2000.
I had a double lung transplant in April 2004.
It would not have been possible without the generousity of my donor and his/her family.
Sorry to anyone who thinks this is way to deep or heavy for these threads