Feeling scared, threatened, insecure, out of your zone-of-comfort, Northside? Short of giving you a hug, many of us would empathise with the agitation and anxiety you feel, it's a normal animal response programmed into our genes: we desire predictability, security, routine, least effort for most return etc.
Yet, you
must try to transcend such feelings, see beyond them, as unfortunately human existance consists of continual change and evolutionary movement.
Cheering you on..

Bo