So, I'm really new to this sport, also, never had any experience in snowboarding and etc. I completed 3 lessons 3 hrs each, and I manage everything not bad - bodydrag, making 8's, self-rescue, going upwind/downwind without the board, getting enough pull to stand on the board, BUT.
I came up with an irritating problem, when I try to finally ride, I get everything messed up, the waves start to disturb, wjen I start to stand on the board, it all begins I pull the bar too strong controlling my legs to put them into right position, the kite crashes... Meanwhile the wind pools me upwind and wave crash my face and I go away from the board. So I just start getting into a panic how to manage all these staff. Maybe I'm stressed out with doing all things at one time, I don't really get it. I feel like messing up everything even before I start LOL.

Also, I'm quite nervous of crashing into other kitesurfers and loosing my board far away from the beach (when I will finally ride... haha) or doing some other stupid staff

Going to have another lesson these days.... 4th one, and I feel like I must pull myself together finally