@ Toph, Kozzie
I've been back a couple of times since the accident... the last time while taking off in strong winds I saw my glider's right wing tip touch the grass.
I needed an anchor person to hold me while I brought it up... he lost his grip with one hand which caused me to rotate; since the wind was strong I popped straight up 3m but the wing was all the way on the right... I crapped myself and thought I was going to fall on my side from 3m and the get dragged over the cliff... But the wing sorted itself out the some strong left break.
That last take off really shook me up... I'm fine in the air and ~landing, but taking off really gets my heart racing.
So physically although I have a lot of injury related issues, I'm fine to fly... it's not very demanding.
I also used to get a lot of pressure from the Mrs... Kiting, PG, Skydiving, Sailplanes, Motorcycles, BJJ, MMA... she just thought I was an a-hole with a death wish and that knocks your confidence. So the times I went back pg'ing I didn't tell her.
The accident really made me aware of my fragility and it's definitely slowed me down, and also made me think about limiting my risks.
I had about 60hrs PG, both inland thermals and ridge soaring.
Flying's awesome... specially inland thermals; the bipbipbip of your vario as core a nice big fat thermal to cloud base, is probably the best experience you can have.
The weird thing is I had all the little broken back indicators that just didn't register with me:
- Friend landed in a tree, fell> broken vertebrae
- Friend on vacation got hit by a dust devil on land > flung around > broken back
- Other stories
Another PG pilot gave me a "trigger grip"

Here you'll need this... I thought sure mate I'll be fine next month.
Don't fly solo, you'll be scared all the time... I know. And if anything goes wrong being alone and injured will be the worst experience of your life.
I wanted to start doing acro... my next wing was going to be an acro one.