Hey kk,
Persistence pays, so get out there. Going back to where you learned is best; a familiar setting, people, and guidance. Getting out in light wind also helps, you can learn heaps in light wind.
I remember my first month. My harness ripping my ribs skyward, hours untangling lines, legs on fire from horrendous beach walks of shame, struggling to see my lost board through burning eyes, and salt water pouring out of every orifice for days! I even got air body dragging and hit the water so hard that my boardies blew apart - still have 'em as a memento - it was so much fun!



I used to think the lesson book one should be re-written:
1. Add 5kg of salt to 10l of water and drink.
2. Place ten kilometers of string in the washer and then untangle.
3. Squeeze a tube of sunscreen into your eyes hourly.
4. Wrap barb wire around your ribs and run a marathon.
5. Do all the above naked at a public beach.
When you can achieve all this, simultaneously, with a huge smile and boundless excitable pleasure, then consider a kite surfing lesson.
The moral of the story is that you can overcome whatever it is you want to overcome, but you have to give it 150%! You are so engrossed that fear is transcended. You will find yourself in the moment, with the dolphins, wind, and a setting sun and realize 'hey, I am just so happy, there is nothing but this moment'. A super awareness prevails. And then one day you forget you are even flying a kite as all becomes one in time and space...!
Just do it! Cheers